My Birthday

So, I am turning 30 tomorrow. An age were I thought my life would be figured out. I wanted to be settled in my life by 30, not waiting. still. Waiting to be with a wonderful man, who makes me happy. Waiting to really start my legal career. 30 feels so hard. It feels like my hope is slowly fading away. I know people think I am being ridiculous, and I am really trying not to feel this way. But honestly, I just not expect to be here at this time in my life.

Thoughts

So memory is a funny thing. It can be a wonderful blessing to have a good memory or it can be a curse. There are some things I would like to forget or at least not remember with startling clarity. Other memories I cherish. It seems a hard task to forgive others when you can remember the hurts so clearly. The bible says that love keeps no record of wrongs. In practice this is a very hard thing to do, except with our kids. I can forgive my kids faster than they can apologize. I am glad that God calls us his kids and forgives us. All in all, I am thankful that I have a good memory, there are too many good things and precious memories that I love to remember.